Time Difference. Growth.

It’s been months since I’ve posted anything on tumblr. Reading the last few post is kinda shocking. I can’t believe I said those things and was feeling that way. I guess I’m moving so fast and chasing my dreams every day that even a couple months equals to years of personal growth.

Since January, I’ve experienced so much. I’ve met a handful of loving friends that I have a good feeling about. I’ve also lost a lot of old friends, but I don’t regret anything. I don’t just drop someone off the face of MY earth, I only let them go if they’ve proven themselves to be someone untrustworthy and someone that I shouldn’t waste my time and energy caring for. For each and every one of my friend, I love them beyond measures, way more than I should. But that’s because I believe that everyone deserves to have a REAL friend (and I expect the same in return). I’ve learned my lesson, I don’t take ANYONE for granted anymore (inside note: thanks, Max).

On another note, I’m exhausted. I work from sunrise to sundown, inside and in front of computers. Thankfully, my major isn’t graphic design because I cannot continue to do this for the rest of my life. It’s a great learning experience and I’m proud to do it… just not planning to continue it forever. Besides, helping the Student Alumni Association and the Nursing Department to become highly recognized and known throughout campus and the southern district is the best feeling ever! I can’t resist helping others, even if I get a little stressed from no sleep and not eating enough (which is actually bad).

For almost a year, I’ve started a bad habit. I’m missing a lot of sleep, lost 8 pounds from not eating, and have become unreasonably mean to Kha. So I’ve decided to change the way I’m living my life. I don’t want to continue being a workaholic. I’m ready for BALANCE. Here are some new goals that I’m planning to start soon. Probably May or sometime before I leave for my Europe trip.

• This may sound crazy, but I think I want to seek God. I’ve been blessed in so many ways and I believe there’s something or someone watching over me. Even though I’m not religious or the perfect believer, I feel like the reason why I’m so successful today is because of Him. There’s no way that it’s all been luck. Hopefully, by seeking Him, I’ll find an answer and He will be the one to harmonize my stressful life. 
• I’m going to start budgeting and controlling my money. I’m planning to write my spending and earnings down and analyze it so I can control my money efficiently and wisely. No more “in my head” mentality. It’s time to invest in something so that money will never be an issue in the future.
• I’ve stop spoiling my boyfriend. It’s about time that I’ve learn to love Kha by LOVING him through my words and action, not materials. I started this by attempting to cook for him last Tuesday. I originally wanted to cook by myself, but we all know that would end in a disaster. So thankfully, Kha came home on time and helped me cook. Held my hands and showed me how to correctly cut food without spoiling it or hurting myself. It was such a fun and cute moment! Maybe one day, Kha will spoil me with (cough: Sailormoon) gifts and trips (cough: to NYC, Cancun, Vegas, etc.) Regardless, we’re still a happy couple till this day and I’m sure we will always be <3

…………………. (awkward moment)

Do you ever get those moments where you don’t feel like typing or thinking anymore? That’s me right now. I had lots of goals that I wanted to write about, but I’m too lazy to finish it. I guess it’s because I didn’t realize how late it was until now. I’m getting sleepy and I’m procrastinating on a few graphic design works. Maybe I should wake up early tomorrow to finish them so I don’t have to worry about it after working at the nail salon. That way, I can actually attend Alice’s karaoke party. I should go… Alice means a lot to me. She’s leaving us for Indonesia and who knows when I’ll ever see her again. She’s like no other and I wish I could have her as a big sister :( Like I said many times before, Peter BETTER marry Alice soon so she can stay in the states with us! We (Kha, Katina, EVO team and I) loveeeee her soooo much! She’s a diamond and can never be replaced!

Anyways. I’m sleepy now. Until next time, good night!